Gone forever,
I lament my bleeding soul,
gone for the better I know,
for my heart has grown.
– IV
Well isn’t that the truth? Every thing we allow to pass is an experience from which our soul can grow. It isn’t always easy, but it is a necessity. We can’t hold onto the beauty around us. Holding only keeps it from being free and truly alive. Remove the constant fear of loss. How much more beautiful is something when we don’t worry about grasping it? How about when what we appreciate chooses to be near to us? Be patient. Don’t be in any rush. These things take time. Learn to navigate the things you feel. Direct yourself towards acceptance of you in the present moment. Work towards what you want, but understand that you are only happy if you choose to be. You see what you want. It’s easier said than done of course, but you aren’t going to let that stop you right?
Go on just say it. You choose happiness or you choose excuses. What good has an excuse ever done you? They only keep you from attaining your best and brightest moments. You might be good now, but how much better could you be if you stopped letting all the excuses you hold onto go? Have you found what you want to put time and energy into when you are alone?
Have you MADE the time (No matter how small) to explore the shore of what it has to offer? Would you turn down 15 minutes of walking on the most beautiful beach you could conceive of? HELL NO, YOU WOULDN’T. So why turn down any amount of time to do what brings you joy?
Stop disillusioning yourself. We don’t all get the ‘perfect’ life. Perhaps for the rest of my life I’ll only find 60 minutes a day to draw and write to you. Should I stop knowing I’ll never get to do more than that? What do you think? I know my choices. Now make yours.
When you get to the end of this day ask yourself, “What did I do well today?” Look for those positives. Build that momentum in your life. Soon enough you’ll be expecting to do better so you’ll have more to reflect on. This alone will get you exceeding expectations. Fan that fire baby. See your beauty, feel it around you. Stay cool!