Was it a ghost? or one of the voices you hear in your head?
You go through life and wonder what the hell happened.
It’s so fast; I lounge in the current
Many things take me away from you.
What the hell happened?
I write this in an aftermath that still I am grasping like cramped and exhausted fingers – palms and pads burning, the sensation that layers of skin may tear open, peeled from the bones; still trying to grip
No kisses, no hugs, it’s clear this isn’t what it was, much more complex now – you don’t want touch – and I don’t want the permeating feeling that I am not enough. I will not be..
You see, I’ve lived my life as honest as I could. Which is hard because we all have issues. And no one understands them. We barely understand our own.
Leaving used to be the hardest thing,
I promise it can be done with ease
I hear you got married,
and all I can think is thank you for all the inspiration,
glad you found a good man.
Don’t try so hard, those are the one’s who get let down the most
I guess I forgot as a grown man with an open heart inside, Ataraxia, the shores of which I always speak of leaving – something like me needs the storm. You say you’re curious. I call all 9’s, dressed to the nines. I’ll show up, and we’ll just ride. Words only once we’re back from the sky.
There is simply not enough time for this world;
every day is a sacrifice of one thing for another.
Maybe we’ll have it, or maybe we won’t.
I could have had everything I wanted for free,
in the end I paid for everything I didn’t want to go away
I had something I was writing you; it wasn’t a sonnet or anything like an ode, limerick, or quatrain-no it was just something-nothing like a burlesque, or villanelle You know it had shape, and sound, and visual! Perhaps a rondeau
I got it all mixed up and by mistake discovered ways of seeing things I could never have found on purpose
What good is all this money, if all it can buy is a first class ticket 6ft under.